[August 2010]
I am genuinely laughing. Really, I am.
You know when you're at the recieveing end of an insult, but it's actually a compliment? Well, I just got one today.
So apparently, I am too simple.
This is according to the latest rishta match, Bilal.
He thought I was too simple.
As if that's a bad thing. Hmpf.
My friends and I always suspected that we were different from the other girls. There was something that separated us from them. And in long, lazy conversations, we soon discovered that the difference was this: we are simple; they are not.
But I think I always believed that this wasn't something people could actually see.
Like the way you see that someone is wearing black.
Or the way you see that someone has brown eyes and black hair.
My friends, 'tis is.
We have labels affixed to our foreheads, that say, "Simple Girl".
And now I know that people can see it.
But does this bother me?
No, not even in the smallest sense. Because I am happy to be me.
Happy, because to me, Islam is simplicity.
And I don't think I would consider myself to be a proper Muslimah if I didn't have some element of simplicity.
I am a Simple Girl, and I am proud to be one.
On a side note, I think I should add one more thing to my list of desirable qualities in a prospective husband: simplicity.
After all, I don't want to be the one sitting around, waiting for him to get ready. I think I'd much prefer it to be the other way around.
2 comments:
I also got simple and way too innocent by an auntie. She was worried I was too naive and trusting, especially if any rishtas came from a south asian background. At first I was so offended, but I realised like you, I need to OWN that label.
I'm happy being complication-free. Don't people like it when they don't have to deal with drama, tears and tantrums?! I know I do! So OWN that label girl!
The most difficult thing to understand is that life is really simple.
We have a tendency of making things a lot more complicated.
The ego-mind, the personality, tells us that simple things are somehow devalued.
The intellect wants to make things juicy.
To make someone or something less than or more than. Instead of appreciating that all things are from the same Source, if perceptively different.
For example, we prefer the use of complicated words and phrases (okay, I do! :P) to make what we are saying or what we are listening to seem more profound. More valid, more legitimate, more true.
Everything is as it is. C'est tout.
I can't wait for the day I have raised my consciousness of the truth to the level that I'll be able to eat an apple and water and that will be a divine feast for me.
For the day when I'll get back to sleeping on a bare floor and have the best rest I've had.
For the day when people will just be in my presence and no words will need be said to communicate our truths and that we can just see the other person's true essence shine bright.
For the day when I realise that I, and every single sentient being on this earth, is always connected to Allah and as such, cannot help be but Divine, spiritual beings having a human experience.
Affirmation: I am who I am, I am where I am, with what I have. I release all that within and without that is not truly my true essence. I am ready to embrace the truth of Who I Truly Am.
"O my Allah, the honour of being Your servant is sufficient.
I am proud of the fact that You are my Lord. You are just as I want, so make me just as You like me to be."
~ Imam Ali (a.s.)
Allah, Divinity, and our True Spirit, is clear, crystal, pure.
Simple.
xxx
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